Cosmic Love

 One of my favourite songs by one of my most favourite bands. Florence and the Machine just blows me away with the same amazing quality that Imogen Heap has, and I can't help but feel bothered by people saying bad things about the way the girl looks. Yeah cause her appearance makes a huge difference on her ability to sing and song-write. I dunno it just struck me as odd that someone would say, "Oh she looks like a man *gigglesquirt*" Uh-Huh? It's even worse when you're showing this music to someone that really means a lot to you and they don't even pay attention to it, they just laugh about how manly they look as a woman.

 To make this situation even more "lulzy", the person I showed "Cosmic Love" to (the music video I should say), has a problem of exaggerating how amazing the stuff she likes is, or how amazing the things that are a part of her life are. For example, she comes from the UK so whenever she talks about it's like "Oh Britain is AMAZING", why? Just because you're feeling a little Patriotic towards your country? Sure no problem. But don't go "Oh Britain is better than Canada lol" and make Canada seem like a cute little toy pet, and that you can't actually take Canada seriously over wherever you came from.

 The other thing is family problems. I a friend that said something really strange to me last night, and she said "I realize how amazing my parents are considering ______ parent's are divorced, _____ parents hate each other, and ____ parent's are well... ____ parents lol. My parents are fucking amazing because they love my sister and I." That alone makes me gag. How could someone (anyone in general) make such a comment? This is what I'm talking about. Not just with the people I know, but with people in general. So you'd make fun of and point out everyone's family problems to show how brilliant your family life is? Hypocritally speaking, the person I'm speaking of does have parents that conflict, and their family life isn't daisies and butterflies like she "realizes" in this shallow epiphany.

 I don't know if anyone has this psychological problem with friends, but does anyone notice that sometimes when you try to talk to someone about a problem or drama you have, the person you're talking to tries to "out-drama" you? Like for example, if I'm getting over my aunt's death and I try to talk to one of my friends about it, she would say that BOTH her grandparents died or something to make her life (or situation), seem worse than yours. I don't know if this is so the other person can get you to forget about what's happening to you so you can take care of her, or if it's just a totally selfish and ignorant comment made because they're trying to avoid helping you. Whatever it is, it's stupid and shallow. If someone asks for help, don't interrupt them with the shit that's in your life. Sit your fucking ass down and listen to them, when you talk too much about yourself, you just make yourself impossible to approach by your friends if they need someone to talk to.

 Since you can add pictures from your computer onto this site, I've moved from Deviantart. There's too much thievery around that shithole and I really don't want to spend my time fighting to tell a foreign site that no, "that's not your artwork stop selling it illegally." Plus there's too much drama there. Have you seen the forum on Deviantart? Jesus christ, the Complaints forum is like 4chan spawning little faggot trolls into a site that's supposed to be a place for artists to put up their portfolio, and works of art. What a joke. That and I think people from my old High school are stalking me on that site. Yeah it sounds pretty self centered that I would think people are stalking me, but they are, three of them all from different moments of my life that I never want to see again. The first one I used to be friends with until I figured out she was playing double agent: She was friends with me and talked trash about one of her other friends, and then she was friends with the person she was badmouthing, and talked trash about me to her. Fucked up right? Yep, confronted her about it, and she acted like I had plotted something against her and I was dubbed a "psychological mastermind who has minions doing all of her dirty work to make her life miserable". All I can say to that is, "U Mad I found out that you lied to me for years?"

    Second one I never was close with, she was a "background" friend that I only knew through one of my close friends. She basically was obsessed with my close friend and did really horrible things to her that were just psychologically fucked up beyond anything. So we made it a point to stay away from her and put a restraining order on her fat ass. We've found photos of us on recent sites of hers that we've fought to keep down, but she keeps putting them back up or moving to new sites, so it's been hard trying to get away from her.

   Third one I actually know nothing about. But my close friend (from previous point) and another friend of mine used to be friends with her. She was more aggressive and when we all found out that she was just another fat cow that stirred drama up, and tore up friendships by spreading rumors throughout friend groups, we dumped her fat ass and stayed the hell away from her. But instead of the second chick, this one decided to contact my two close friends and threaten, blackmail, and contacted the chick from the previous paragraph to make nice with her so they could both go against us. The whole thing is really confusing and a giant shitstorm, and all three of these people (chick one, two, and three) are all on Deviantart, and they all creep me and friends' pages). So whatever, I'm going to Blogger and hopefully they don't find my blog. I just want to find somewhere to speak my mind without these freaks stalking and reading my shit.

 The good things that are happening to me right now, is that I finally got a job. I've been looking for a while (and I've been accused that I actually haven't been looking very hard, because everytime I said I was unemployed I was given this weird look like I was lying.) Sure there are jobs available, but either A) I'm not qualified to do them B) I don't get hired if I apply and C) I absolutely can't get there. There's just no way I can get there from where I am even if I tried.

So now I have one and I really would like to thank myself for still trying. I was going to give up, I really was. But I can't fuck up and slack, I can't lose this. I need to earn myself some cash and get stuff that I've always wanted, that my parents would never get me even if I asked! No... it's not naughty stuff. Just, clothes that I want and not what my mom thinks looks nice. Lol

 That, and I would really like to look at makeup. It's been really hard trying to get decent makeup on a budget because half of it is really bad and doesn't stay on properly (I've been meaning to get the paint pot by M.A.C that apparently you can put on ANYWHERE! And makes that area last longer, I.E no cracks and creases in eyeshadow, no streaky foundation/concealer, and longer lasting lip-wear). Apparently there's this really good brand of cosmetics called NYX that's drugstore branded, but it works like magic, and the colours are really unique (stuff you'd find at M.A.C for example).

Lastly, I really want to get into publishing and editing. Of course my punctuation and grammar probably sucks and I can't write well worth shit, but I want to get better. What's the point of giving up if you don't even try?