Do you ever shut up?

    Ever want to tell someone dear to you to shut the fuck up? I do all the time. I just don't have the heart to. I left Facebook for the very reason I started posting on Blogger instead of Deviantart journals. There are only a few people on that site who actually write a "Journal", while so many others just write about how amazing they are, what they have, and what they want, and it just gets sickening to the point where a lot of my friends are just bitching about all this... stuff, that they want. They're so materialistic it's fucking ridiculous.

    A new journal, to spark the point I'm making, literally just talks about how awesome (my friend) thinks her life is and how she's going out of the country (again) just for a vacation- even though she has no flow of income. WHERE IS THE MONEY? The entire journal is a list of stuff she wants and all I can think about is how much money it's going to cost. An electric guitar? A full canvas set that she's going to stock pile with art supplies (which are expensive, you know) and more PVC figures? I'm sorry, everyone has hobbies, just like I have mountains of books. But there comes a time where it just astounds me how people like my brainless friend thinks she can just go "Oh I feel like getting into instruments again, let me just whip out a couple hundred" and oh "I feel like painting for the hell of it, let me just spend hundreds on art supplies just to ease my boredom".

      Money doesn't grow on trees. You earn it through hard work, and I'm sorry, it pisses me off how this air head thinks she can just throw around her money to ease boredom, and then rant about how hard done by she is trying to figure out how to spend it on other things, which she probably doesn't even need. This is why I left Facebook. This is why I'm planning on leaving Deviantart. And this is why I will never have Twitter. All it is, is a self indulgent network of miserable twits drowning in their own materialism.

Here's another event that just made me want to say "SHUT UP!" :

There's this East Indian male (maybe a few years older than me) in my Creative Writing class who I thought was intelligent (I'm lacking a strong dose of "smart people" in my classes these days), and I don't judge his greasy face, his thick rimmed glasses, or the massive red circles around his eyes. He actually looked like a legit "geek", a smart one, is what I'm getting at.

So we do workshops 90% of the class, and I'm in this group of people and we all read each other's work, and criticize what works and what doesn't, and what could be done to make it better. Well instead of actually doing this like everyone else in the group did, the guy just stares at you with his face literally inches from yours, and says in a flat boring voice, "I'm a visual reader, and I don't think there's enough description for me to 'see' what's going on."

I'm sorry, what? Since when did criticism ever mean "Your story sucks because it's not written the way, I want it to be written." ? It doesn't stop there though.

He said the same thing to everyone in the group. The stories were all different, so the guy obviously didn't care about actually reading them through and giving good advice. That and I'm pretty sure he's an arrogant, close minded fuck, who thinks that his writing is better than anyone's. So I guess the same answer would just come out of his mouth wouldn't it?

Anyways, the next thing he said (yeah he said more), just astounded me, and proved my point about him being really god damn sheltered. He kept talking to me oddly enough, even when he was supposedly critiquing the other group members' work. So he said this to everyone's story (not just mine) but he kept saying it to me, "Sorry I'm not a very good reader, so I can't read properly."

Yep. This guy had the gall to say this in front of everyone in the workshop group, and the professor who's desk was behind us (she even cut into our group discussions a few times and said "lol sorry I'm eavesdropping <3"), like it was just a casual blunder that no one would care about and laugh at.

No one laughed. I sure as fuck didn't. You are in Creative Writing, you have to fucking read well let alone just be able to read, and if you don't read, why the hell are you giving "advice" to people who are learning to write? Reading and writing go hand and hand, it's so elementary, so consequently: Why are you even in this class?

This is Creative Writing 1110, which means you had to have gotten passed another class before this one, and get a C+ no less to even be applicable for higher grade courses. So, I'm confused. You can't write well if you don't read. How is he even here? Why is he even here? Why the fuck would you say something like that, like it doesn't even matter? Fuck this fucking guy.


I guess he's just one of those geeks that look like a geek, but are too stupid to be stereotypically smart.


Hey, your Elementary school called, they said they don't accept money instead of your 1st Grade reading and writing skills.

 Youtube comments (oh yeah, you know where this is going) and Deviantart comments that self advertise their galleries/videos on the person's page, and the comments section of the person's art submissions/video submissions. Yeah you know those guys who leave "I have art like this in my gallery, check it out plz!!"  or "I have videos like this, come to my channel plz". Except they have bad grammar and really annoying symbols.

This angers me 1) because there's nothing more irritating than someone having the balls to go ahead and clog up your comments section with someone saying "come to MY channel!" / "come to MY gallery!" and 2) how ignorant do you have to be do actually spend time typing this out and advertising yourself like an annoying call-ad?

Piss off. No one likes you, no one cares, they came to this page to see the person's artwork/video. Not yours!

Karma cat will shoot you with it's paw lazurz. Shut up already!

Cosmic Love

 One of my favourite songs by one of my most favourite bands. Florence and the Machine just blows me away with the same amazing quality that Imogen Heap has, and I can't help but feel bothered by people saying bad things about the way the girl looks. Yeah cause her appearance makes a huge difference on her ability to sing and song-write. I dunno it just struck me as odd that someone would say, "Oh she looks like a man *gigglesquirt*" Uh-Huh? It's even worse when you're showing this music to someone that really means a lot to you and they don't even pay attention to it, they just laugh about how manly they look as a woman.

 To make this situation even more "lulzy", the person I showed "Cosmic Love" to (the music video I should say), has a problem of exaggerating how amazing the stuff she likes is, or how amazing the things that are a part of her life are. For example, she comes from the UK so whenever she talks about it's like "Oh Britain is AMAZING", why? Just because you're feeling a little Patriotic towards your country? Sure no problem. But don't go "Oh Britain is better than Canada lol" and make Canada seem like a cute little toy pet, and that you can't actually take Canada seriously over wherever you came from.

 The other thing is family problems. I a friend that said something really strange to me last night, and she said "I realize how amazing my parents are considering ______ parent's are divorced, _____ parents hate each other, and ____ parent's are well... ____ parents lol. My parents are fucking amazing because they love my sister and I." That alone makes me gag. How could someone (anyone in general) make such a comment? This is what I'm talking about. Not just with the people I know, but with people in general. So you'd make fun of and point out everyone's family problems to show how brilliant your family life is? Hypocritally speaking, the person I'm speaking of does have parents that conflict, and their family life isn't daisies and butterflies like she "realizes" in this shallow epiphany.

 I don't know if anyone has this psychological problem with friends, but does anyone notice that sometimes when you try to talk to someone about a problem or drama you have, the person you're talking to tries to "out-drama" you? Like for example, if I'm getting over my aunt's death and I try to talk to one of my friends about it, she would say that BOTH her grandparents died or something to make her life (or situation), seem worse than yours. I don't know if this is so the other person can get you to forget about what's happening to you so you can take care of her, or if it's just a totally selfish and ignorant comment made because they're trying to avoid helping you. Whatever it is, it's stupid and shallow. If someone asks for help, don't interrupt them with the shit that's in your life. Sit your fucking ass down and listen to them, when you talk too much about yourself, you just make yourself impossible to approach by your friends if they need someone to talk to.

 Since you can add pictures from your computer onto this site, I've moved from Deviantart. There's too much thievery around that shithole and I really don't want to spend my time fighting to tell a foreign site that no, "that's not your artwork stop selling it illegally." Plus there's too much drama there. Have you seen the forum on Deviantart? Jesus christ, the Complaints forum is like 4chan spawning little faggot trolls into a site that's supposed to be a place for artists to put up their portfolio, and works of art. What a joke. That and I think people from my old High school are stalking me on that site. Yeah it sounds pretty self centered that I would think people are stalking me, but they are, three of them all from different moments of my life that I never want to see again. The first one I used to be friends with until I figured out she was playing double agent: She was friends with me and talked trash about one of her other friends, and then she was friends with the person she was badmouthing, and talked trash about me to her. Fucked up right? Yep, confronted her about it, and she acted like I had plotted something against her and I was dubbed a "psychological mastermind who has minions doing all of her dirty work to make her life miserable". All I can say to that is, "U Mad I found out that you lied to me for years?"

    Second one I never was close with, she was a "background" friend that I only knew through one of my close friends. She basically was obsessed with my close friend and did really horrible things to her that were just psychologically fucked up beyond anything. So we made it a point to stay away from her and put a restraining order on her fat ass. We've found photos of us on recent sites of hers that we've fought to keep down, but she keeps putting them back up or moving to new sites, so it's been hard trying to get away from her.

   Third one I actually know nothing about. But my close friend (from previous point) and another friend of mine used to be friends with her. She was more aggressive and when we all found out that she was just another fat cow that stirred drama up, and tore up friendships by spreading rumors throughout friend groups, we dumped her fat ass and stayed the hell away from her. But instead of the second chick, this one decided to contact my two close friends and threaten, blackmail, and contacted the chick from the previous paragraph to make nice with her so they could both go against us. The whole thing is really confusing and a giant shitstorm, and all three of these people (chick one, two, and three) are all on Deviantart, and they all creep me and friends' pages). So whatever, I'm going to Blogger and hopefully they don't find my blog. I just want to find somewhere to speak my mind without these freaks stalking and reading my shit.

 The good things that are happening to me right now, is that I finally got a job. I've been looking for a while (and I've been accused that I actually haven't been looking very hard, because everytime I said I was unemployed I was given this weird look like I was lying.) Sure there are jobs available, but either A) I'm not qualified to do them B) I don't get hired if I apply and C) I absolutely can't get there. There's just no way I can get there from where I am even if I tried.

So now I have one and I really would like to thank myself for still trying. I was going to give up, I really was. But I can't fuck up and slack, I can't lose this. I need to earn myself some cash and get stuff that I've always wanted, that my parents would never get me even if I asked! No... it's not naughty stuff. Just, clothes that I want and not what my mom thinks looks nice. Lol

 That, and I would really like to look at makeup. It's been really hard trying to get decent makeup on a budget because half of it is really bad and doesn't stay on properly (I've been meaning to get the paint pot by M.A.C that apparently you can put on ANYWHERE! And makes that area last longer, I.E no cracks and creases in eyeshadow, no streaky foundation/concealer, and longer lasting lip-wear). Apparently there's this really good brand of cosmetics called NYX that's drugstore branded, but it works like magic, and the colours are really unique (stuff you'd find at M.A.C for example).

Lastly, I really want to get into publishing and editing. Of course my punctuation and grammar probably sucks and I can't write well worth shit, but I want to get better. What's the point of giving up if you don't even try?